Feeling blue. Unhappy in marriage and was hanging out (nothing physical - just dinner) every 6 mos or so with an ex whom I have been friends with for 15 yrs (unknown to dh). Attraction got too intense for me (there have always been some sparks between us) and last night I just let it go. Sent him a note and said it was too much for me, I was living with regret over not having stayed with him, and that as much I really truly value his friendship it was too intense for me to handle - and I ended it. Woke up this morning with the incredibly sad realization that now, it's about me and my marriage. No more buffer, no more exciting thrilling little escapes with the ex. Time to face the music. Just venting. Thanks for listening.